Feeling Out of Place
Ever feel like a stalk of corn in a field of beans? Like you are totally out of place and don't fit in?
I sure have. I remember many years ago driving by a huge, flourishing bean field and seeing one lone stalk of corn in the middle of the field. I remember thinking, that's EXACTLY how I feel!
I used to think God screwed up when He made me, that there really wasn't a use for me. I felt SO different than everyone around me. Today, however, I'm thankful I felt like that stalk of corn because what it did was help me grow. It helped me turn to God instead of turning to people all the time. It helped me want to discover who God created me to be and why I was different. If I would have remained in that bean field and minimized myself to fit in, I wouldn't be who I am or where I am today.
I'm so thankful I didn't continue to compromise myself and assimilate to others. The bean field wasn't bad, it just wasn't my tribe. It was forcing me to be someone I wasn't created to be and everything in my life was suffering because of it.
Honestly, it WAS scary leaving that bean field because that's what I was familiar with. People were also telling me I was screwing up by leaving. I lost friends and made some enemies along the way, but God knew I wasn't supposed to be there. He never left my side. It took me leaving in order for me to find my purpose. It took me leaving in order for me to stop being afraid. It took me leaving in order for me to begin to see the plans of the Lord in my life. I'm so thankful I took that step!
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."