When God first asked me, 'Who are you?' I didn't know what to say.
Who was I?
A mom?
A wife?
A daughter
A nurse?
What did that even mean, Who are you?
As I have walked through my journey of healing from abuse, this question has stuck with me. I think it's one of the most important questions God could have asked. I believe it's improved my life in a profound way.
This question led me straight to something I desperately needed to know.
What was it you might ask?
The answer was that I had no idea who I was, not really. And as long as I didn't know this, God showed me I would keep putting up with almost anything in my life. I would keep allowing certain things to hurt me, control me and put all of this above Him.
Here are some examples of not knowing myself...I didn't know my likes or dislikes... and if I knew I didn't like something, I would usually allow someone to talk me out of not liking it. I didn't know my wants or goals in life. I didn't know what God really thought about me. Yeah I knew in scripture, but I mean what did Holy Spirit revelation really think of me?
Other things I didn't know... I am a woman of my word, I am strong and beautiful, loving and kind. I didn't realize that I like stability and being organized. That I am smart and talented in many ways. I didn't know that I was created to be in God's Kingdom with a seat at His table, not in a basement or alley way with nothing but scraps of loneliness and emptiness to eat.
I had been assimilating to others most of my life and had not even realized I was doing it. I didn't even know what that was. But it was true. I just needed God's revelation to see. As long as I didn't know the answer to this question, I kept doing what others wanted me to do. I kept thinking my life WAS about everyone else and that I didn't matter.
Once I started seeing glimpses of myself, my true self through God's eyes, I was blown away. I wasn't what my husband at the time had wanted me to think. I wasn't that at all.
If you would like to know more about Identity in your own life, my new series 'Identity Out of Abuse' might benefit you. Click on the link below.
Blessings to you!
Rachel